What I Learned from Allume – Before I Go

It is a God -sized dream of mine, attending a blogging conference.  I want nothing more than to go and learn from  women, sisters really, who have gone before me.  Those who have sweat the tears, the fears and yep,  even the small stuff in order to let their voices ring truth and grace.

I want this like I have  need of air.  To hug necks, rub shoulders with other dreamers and look into the eyes of those who I have come to love, deeply and truly.  I have wanted to meet new people and find wild crazy ways to build deep and lasting relationships that go beyond the borders of my blog and the life altering comments that grace my pages from those who have pledged to have my back.

I want this like I have need of air.

At first I didn’t think I would be able to go.  God is moving in our little family.  And these shifts that we are making, this shuffling of furniture is not without some pain and narrow places.   And yet, each day we are reminded with a constant assurance that His will is the way.   Allume is just another one of those ways where God is moving.

I stayed up late one night last week to try and win my ticket with the Allume twitter party.  And it was an awesome experience seeing God’s fire and  a glimpse into the possibility of breathing the same air as 450 soul sisters all expressed in 140 characters or less, deep and authentic.  My heart beat anticipation as I tweeted my shout out, letting our lovely host know that this, this was what I wanted – more than anything.

I want this like I have need of air.

I didn’t win that night, but I know that somewhere the beautiful lady who did is right now, in this moment basking in miracle, basking in the almighty provision of Jehovah Jireh and that makes me smile with my whole heart.

At around too-late o’clock I shut down my computer and went to bed and then woke up with the most amazing thought.  I texted my husband to let him know my idea and he said, “it works, book it.”  I was giddy when I hit the payment button, positively giddy. 

And then this week, fear started to settle in.  It started its slow creep, casting shadows across my dream that had barely left the ground.  How could I possibly fit in?  How could I, the person who can still be caught saying “I’m a writer” with a hand covering half her mouth ever fit in?  And the lies that hiss when you’re unaware they can wreak havoc on a soul and tear holes through excitement faster than you can say “I’m going to Allume.”  

And just before fear became my paralyser, I came across the “Allume Newbie” Facebook Page – and I haven’t looked back.   This community of women, this stalwart of sisters is already wrapping around, coming around and building a foundation of acceptance long before the sun will shine on October 24.

So fellow newbies, fellow bloggers, fellow writers, whispering this assurance right now, right now from one newbie to another – This is going to be GREAT! 

Christ will meet us, He will wrap us and cover us in grace – and we will be moved and we will be healed.  I know this because of the women He has allowed to go before us, pillars and encouragers – those women of the Allume team.

This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9

This is going to be GREAT!

13 Comments

  1. I am SO EXCITED for you my friend! SO excited! And of COURSE you will fit in… but I know those whispers that scream louder than Truth… I am believing that He will make a way and I just may get to be there too… right alongside you, hand covering mouth, boldly stepping into who we are! Love you and your heart!

  2. I can’t wait to meet you :)And this post is beautiful. You ARE a writer, my friend.

    • Thank you through tears Crystal – just thank you. And meeting you… hope your neck is strong girl… cause I’m a ninja hugger!

  3. Oh this was simply beautiful. I am that lady basking in the miracle. I have to echo everything you wrote about that twitter night. I went in hopeful at the chance to win. As the evening progressed, I became less focused on hoping that I would win and just thanking God for this beautiful community of women who were cheering each other other on and offering encouragement over {short} tweets. I was thankful that someone was going to be blessed with a free ticket and that God would make a way for everyone else who needed to be there too.

    I’m looking forward to sweet fellowship with women who share similar dreams and hope to meet you in a few months.

    • Heather – this brought tears to my eyes this morning… that you would find this post?? And then knowing that God has gifted you with a miracle – That makes my heart smile. Shall we find a place to meet in October? I would love to hug your neck friend.

    • Most definitely!

  4. I am soooo excited! Allume is just going to be BEYOND! (Beyond what, you can decide for yourself) I look forward to learning more about you in the months leading up to Allume, but I can already see from reading a bit of your blog that you have so much wisdom to share. So glad to meet you!

  5. This post is beautiful! Perfectly stated. Poetically flowing words of your heart. I am so humbled to be a part of that team…and am praying God will use me for His will. He has already used you to bless me and many others for sure.

    • Janelle, Thank you. Your words of encouragement have come to mean a lot to me… I have appreciated your welcoming and open arms!

  6. Beautiful. Poetic. Truthful. Transparent. Love this post! Thank you so much for sharing!

  7. Hey,

    I’ll be there. So we should meet for sure. Feel free to come join our Better Writer group on FB too. It’s full of Allumees who started writing together last year and we love meeting new bloggers. We have Better Blogs too – for technical stuff. See you there!!!

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