Part of the Journey

It was so cold when my alarm jolted me from a fitful sleep.  So cold in fact, that my first instinct was to re-set my alarm and burrow deeper under the covers, the cocoon of heat from the warmth of our bodies a familiar comfort.

I closed my eyes and wished for forty-five more minutes but I could feel my heart whooshing in my ears.

How could I sleep?

I had heard Him calling and I had spent so many of the previous days moving about as if I hadn’t heard Him speak my name.

My feet hit the floor with the cusp of dawn – was I really going to let sleep overshadow this time of change? Or, was I going to answer the call of my Saviour as He beckoned me into a new season?

That cold January morning got me thinking…

I often ask God to show me His path, which direction I should take, how I should go about the next leg of my life.  I spend countless moments writing thoughts and musing about how I think God is answering in journals.

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But once I allow His purpose to take up residence in my heart I, very rarely if at all, invite Him along on my journey.

There are decisions that need to be made in this next season; choices that are time sensitive.  While I should be glad of the freedom to choose I find myself paralyzed with fear that I will make the wrong choice.

How is it that I so easily forget that God’s purpose does not hinge on my action or inaction?  My only task, the one that He calls me to, is to acknowledge his sovereignty in my life and trust him with all that I have – he will make the path clear.

I also know, I can’t make choices that echo the heart of God if I don’t first make space for Him to be my daily encounter.

Without the deep and beautiful connection that plunges the roots of my soul deep into His, I wander aimlessly – trying to find my way.

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“I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you might inner strength through his Holy Spirit.  And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him.  May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love.”  Ephesians 3:16-17

“I need you God, in this moment, more than all my moments of yesterday.  Show me yourself today, help me furrow deep in the richness of your love.   And, may I find in that love the seed of your purpose.”


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