Eeyore and Dreams

She said it to me in passing last week.  We were talking and laughing on the phone making plans for the weekend.  The conversation turned to my uncertainty about the future and this God-sized dream that I’m following. 

God-sized dreams sometimes come with God-sized plans and there are days when I’m paralyzed with fear and anxiety about how it’s all going to work.  Unfortunately for those closest to me, this dooms-day fear is running a little amuck.

In the middle of our laughter I made a flippant comment about how I don’t know if I’m going to survive this next step.  I’m not sure it’s all going to come together.  How I think that I need to get creative with ground beef and boxed Kraft Dinner because I’m fairly certain that’s all we’ll be able to afford.  How I’ll have to walk around with holes in my socks or, have mercy, figure out how to darn and mend and sew because who can afford to buy brand new when you’re full-time student.

Before you know my inner Eeyore is coming out.  Head hung, ears dragging on the ground and my feet feel as if they are a hundred pounds as I try and walk.

And in Winnie the Pooh, Eeyore is adorable.  I mean come on folks, all that squishy hard to miss cuteness tied up with a pink bow on the tail?  Yeah he’s cute all right but the Eeyore look on a 42 year old woman?  Not so attractive.

My negativity is not loveable, it’s not plush or pliable and it’s certainly a far cry from endearing. In fact, it’s downright annoying. 

All of that self-depreciating talk leads straight to self-doubt and closes my fists tight around fledgling faith.  It slams the windows on dreams and closes the door on opportunity.  All of that negative talk leads us straight into a joyless life.

And, here’s the thing, God delights in my joy, He is ecstatic when my laughter boasts no fear of the future.  Within the span of one normal run of the mill telephone conversation God showed me clearly that my complaining and worrying can suffocate my joy.

God did not plant fear and doubt to grow along side the dreams that He placed in my heart.  He intended those dreams to grow and invade my senses, my being and my purpose for living.  To overtake every aspect of my life – so that my eyes would be fixed on His blessings in the here and now.

“She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future.” Proverbs 31:25

How about you friend?  Do you laugh without fear of the future?  Do you sometimes let negativity and doubt hinder joy?  I would love to hear from you. 


14 Comments

  1. Eeyore is such a perfect description of me over the last week or so. Thank you so much for reminding me that I am letting fear steal my joy.

  2. Ah, that Eeyore-like inner voice that we have to learn to squish whenever it starts its litany of ‘I can’t do this’. “It slams the window on dreams”–those words resonate with me. Thank you for reminding me that God delights in my joy.

  3. Oh I love this, my friend! We can all accidentally entertain the voice of Eeyore – but it’s what we do when we begin to actually hear it coming out of our own mouths! Thankful you recognized it quickly – and heard that it was not Truth!

    And this: “God did not plant fear and doubt to grow along side the dreams that He placed in my heart. He intended those dreams to grow and invade my senses, my being and my purpose for living.”

    Amen, sister! I love this!
    ~K~

  4. It’s all too easy to slide from the bouncy joy of Tigger to the melancholy of Eeyore. We’ve all done it – the key is to recognize it and stop the gloominess in its tracks. “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7 You can and will do this – I know it.

    • I almost included that verse in my post but then didn’t and here you are quoting it… I love it!!! Can’t wait until October friend when we can laugh without fear of the future together.

  5. It’s so hard, but really neat when you can have moments of realization like this. It’s a challenge to get rid of the inner eeyore, and I applaud you for doing it. You are doing fabulous and keeping yourself rooted where you should–in God.

    • Kirsten – thank you so much for your words and your encouragement! And, for you confidence in me – praying God helps me see His path for my life.

  6. I, too, live out a not-so-adorable Eeyore in my doubting moments. I, too, know what it is to vacillate between the forming joy of dreaming and facing the ridiculousness of it all and instead of that causing me to turn to GOD as the only one who can make this dream happen, I complain and doubt and think it’s about me. Thank you for the encouragement today, friend — for your wisdom and your truth telling…I appreciate you.

    • That really is the question of the day isn’t it Ashley – How is that we know God is our provision – He can make the impossible possible and yet we still doubt? I’m fairly certain that it’ll be a lifetime of exploring and still won’t get it right. Thank you for your encouragement friend.

  7. Oh, Tonya, I am an Eeyore through and through and I needed this post today!! Thanks for a correcting in my perspective!!

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