Change?!?!?

Change and I, we don’t get on very well.  Change is risky.  Change can lead to failure.  Change is not how we do things around here.  I’m a “plan my work and work my plan”kind of gal. 

When there is a step by step, plotted course that I have painstakingly mapped out, don’t get in my way because I am a force.  I will claw and scratch and yell and kick and scream until this plan is executed.  And by that description I wear the badge of “control freak.”  Trust me, I’ve earned it.

And my inner toddler begins to show as the tantrum of fear turns to a full on melt down. My bravado, it snakes with pride and power and it stomps its foot in impatience – because we cannot stray from the plan – not even one toe over the line. 

And then…

There was something in me that came up short this morning when I cracked the spine of my devotional.  These words leapt of the page in a 3D, IMAX kind of way.

 

“When things don’t go as you would like, accept the situation immediately” –   Sarah Young (Jesus Calling Devotional)

 
Wait?!  What!?? Immediately?!?!? Are you sure???

And there was a whisper of a familiar story in the Gospels that came to mind as I attempted to wrestle these words straight out of mind – because really who invited them anyway?

A miracle before it was time.  An unexpected moment.  A relinquishing of control.
 
Change.

The next day there was a wedding celebration in the village of Cana in Galilee. Jesus’ mother was there, and Jesus and his disciples were also invited to the celebration. The wine supply ran out during the festivities, so Jesus’ mother told him, “They have no more wine.”

          “Dear woman, that’s not our problem,” Jesus replied. “My time has not come.”
          (John 2:1-4 NLT)

I wonder did Jesus feel the same way I feel about change?  Did He experience some of the same frustration I feel when things are not going according to plan? And why did He willingly alter His plan?

He was going to a wedding.  That was the plan.

He was invited to a weeklong celebration.  That was the plan.

He was going to eat delicious food.  That was the plan.

He was going to laugh and have a good time with friends.  That was the plan.

The plan didn’t include a public showing of a miracle.

I don’t think I’ll ever understand why Mary seemed to ignore His words and said “Do whatever He tells you.”  I don’t think I’ll ever know the answer on this side of heaven but here is what I know.

Jesus did everything to glorify the Father.  Just a few chapters later He says it quite plainly, So Jesus explained, “I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself. He does only what he sees the Father doing. Whatever the Father does, the Son also does. (John 5:19).  He knew that altering the plan would be the first step in revealing His divine nature. 

I would also like to think that Jesus knew the chosen twelve would eventually need something tangible, concrete – miraculous – to bolster their shaky and still unpredictable faith.  They would need this because life was about to change for them and it wouldn’t always be about weddings and celebrations.  The apostles would experience heartache, betrayal, weariness, frustration and… death.

I am no Bible scholar – my bookshelves do not boast commentaries or dictionaries.  But what I do have is this hesitant faith that begins to bolster under the knowledge that perhaps Jesus experienced some of what I go through when change throws me a curveball. 

So, today I’m putting one toe over that line I thought was indelible, the one that I have created, and wait to accept change.  I await an opportunity to use change as a way to bear witness to God’s glory and His power. 

“So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor.(1 Peter 5:6).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

4 Comments

  1. Love this!!! And you, friend! Lean in to Change… It’s scary I know – but He is usually ready to surprise us in the adventure of it all!

  2. The words “control” and “freak” have been used together to describe me more than once! I don’t take it well when my plans are thwarted but I’ve had to learn to roll with the changes (quoting a little REO Speedwagon there). I love the story of Jesus turning water into wine because for me it accents a very human relationship between mother and son. Very insightful post, friend!

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