Brave – Five Minute Friday

There is change in the air.   You know the kind I’m talking about.  The kind where the atmosphere crackles with anticipation and you can feel the different to the marrow of your bones.

You have craved this change.  Dreamed this change and as you’re about to stare it down your knees are knocking and your mouth goes dry.  Change may be necessary but it is almost always scary.

The unknown beats a violent tattoo in your heart and the “what ifs” tumble wildly in your mind.   The worst case scenario plays in Technicolor and stereo surround in your dreams, drowning out the best case scenario with drama and disaster.

I’m about to take a leap.  A huge one!  I am leaving a job of 9 years and a steady and reliable income, to head back to school full time.  I’m leaving the comfort of knowing there’s money in the bank for the new shirt, or shoes, or that thing that I’ve had my eye on for so very long. 

I’m leaving the comfort of convenience for the sake of following a dream.

Scared doesn’t even begin to describe it.  I am knock-kneed, sweating profusely, shaking like a leaf, feeling sick to my stomach scared.  How is this going to work?  How will we make ends meet?  How, how, how, HOW?????

Bravery doesn’t trump fear.  Bravery doesn’t negate the feelings of anxiety.  No bravery is what it takes to walk through it.  Bravery is the battle cry of your heart as you straighten your knees and march Joshua-like around what’s got you scared.   Bravery is the steps you take even when the concrete shoes of fear feel as if they are weighing you down.

Bravery is the scraped knees as you hit the floor in prayer.  It’s the guttural howl that comes from the depths of wanting to give it all up and instead you give it all over.  It’s the tears that drip off a quivering chin.  Bravery is the hoarse voice whispering “enough” when you’ve finally decided that God’s in control and He’s got this.

Bravery is the knowing that you may be one step away from certain disaster but putting one foot in front of the other anyway because your faith is what makes you strong. 

Your faith is what makes you BRAVE!  


  Linking up with Lisa-Jo Baker today!!  There’s all kinds of fearless, brave and beautiful people over here… you should really take a look!

 

 

 

 

 

20 Comments

  1. “Bravery doesn’t trump fear… but it’s what it takes to walk right through it.” I love this! And you’re so right about having to leave the comfort of convenience being so scary. But friend, if you are following the directions of the Father, you have nothing to fear. Our bravery comes from our faith!

    • I am learning this lesson among many this year… that I don’t have to have it all figured out… I just have to move!! Thanks for stopping by here roomie… I just love it when I see your name pop up in my email!

  2. I got chills!! You go girl!! ~Bravery is when you scrap your knee hitting the floor in prayer! Amen!!

    • Thank you friend…So glad you’re part of my life… and it helps, you know, having you in my corner, cheering me on… God uses you. Never forget it!

  3. I love you so, dear friend! I am so honored that you are brave – in so many ways… and I am a blessed recipient of your leaning in hard, and trusting in full… and oh how I cannot wait to hug your neck ‘proper’ at Allume!

    Believing He goes beyond what you are asking or thinking… actually – I am being Brave enough to KNOW THAT HE WILL!

    • Karrilee – thank you so much friend for your prayers. It is going to be an exciting time – these next few months – learning to lean in and trust. Trust has never been my “go to” but God is showing me, leading me and teaching me!

  4. Dear Tonya
    I am so proud of you! It might be difficult financially in the beginning, but I am sure your Provider never sleeps, nor slumber!!
    Blessings from FMF
    Mia

    • Oh Mia, He does not sleep and He does not slumber and thank you Lord, just thank you Jesus for that reminder today as I learn to trust and lean in hard on Christ… Thank you sweet friend for the truth you speak here.

  5. “Bravery is the scraped knee as you hit the floor in prayer.” SO well said! It hurts to get down there sometimes. And that posture of submission and dependence is more than just uncomfortable, it’s painful! Thank you for sharing this!

    • Thank you so much for stopping by here. Holding your hand right beside you sister – knees bent, palms open, basking in grace.

  6. Yes, amen.

  7. Oh, Tanya, what a brave and wild adventure going back to school is! The unknown beats a violent tattoo in my own heart, more often than I’d like. And I love how you used your words here to evoke a powerful image of bravery in the face of fear.

    • Thank you friend for your encouragement – some days my heart beat is rather loud – but He is bigger and He knows what I need – learning to lean in and trust.

  8. Woohoo!! Love this! So excited to watch you take this leap – God is going to do some amazing things through this! You inspire 🙂

    • Thank you Crystal and knowing that I have friends like you, praying for me and spurring me one… well it often silences the howl of fear as I move through this one step at a time with Him 🙂

  9. Wow, Tonya, I am so proud of you for being brave and going for your dream. Loved the imagery of concrete shoes of fear. Praying today that God will continue to give you courage and peace as you go forth 🙂

    • Dolly – I covet your prayers… thank you so much for them. Courage yes and peace yes – I need those so much – need them like air. Thank you.

  10. love, love, love it! every.single.word.
    I can’t wait to see what God does with you, Brave one!

    • Amy, I can’t wait either!! What an adventure and He is in control and when that happens, well… it is generally immeasurably more than I could hope for or imagine!

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