And Isn’t That Just the How of it?…

Just yesterday I was reading Ann Voskamp’s blog about the “habit of harvest”, the habit of ministering and finding ways to do something that makes a difference.   As I read the words,  my head was nodding  its yes and the “mmm hmmm’s”  were bringing me to the realization that what I was reading was the absolute truth.  But the nodding and the mutterings stopped as the weight of the words began to push on my soul and I could feel  doubt rising large in me and drowning out the voice of God.  The only word I could see, looming in my vision was HOW.  A word that speaks of impossibility, that makes us doubt the existence of a good God – HOW.

HOW?

HOW could I possibly make this a reality, the answering a need, the call to minister and be a blessing?   Could I a sinner, a messy and admitted wrong doer, ever accomplish the HOW?  And I wrestled and I struggled with the thought of the sending, the “go into all the world “ (Mark 16:15), because HOW can I go?  HOW could I accomplish what God has for me?  My faith is faint and my heart does not always believe the words of Jesus “I appointed you to go and produce fruit that will last…” (John 15:16).

I’m here in this moment, pressing into God and I am weeping because I can’t quite see the HOW.  I can’t quite get beyond my own thoughts of doubt that I am a child of God and that He has chosen me for His purpose.  I weep because I can’t get to the “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139) truth of what God has for me.  I weep because even in this place of doubt there is hope that “Because of Christ and our faith in Him, we can now come fearlessly into God’s presence” (Ephesians 3:12.   I weep because He has gently reminded me that though I have slept and forgotten to “watch and pray” He has not and He will show me HOW.

And isn’t that just the thing?  God is the HOW.  He is the one who sees the HOW even when our eyes are blind to His provision, to His mercies and to His grace.   He is the HOW when our minds howl our doubt and fears.  He is the HOW when our self-imposed limitations rear up and cause us to stumble along the path of doing.  He is the HOW because of the sacrifice of His one and only Son. 

So, HOW?

The HOW is in waiting in prayer.  It is in believing the truth of salvation, bought and purchased by a perfect Saviour on an imperfect cross.  The HOW is delving deep into the heart of God and allowing yourself to know, to really know that you are His. The HOW is resting in the assurances that we can “do everything with the help of Christ who gives [us] the strength we need” (Philippians 4:13).

He is the HOW.

2 Comments

  1. Love your post! Yes, we get excited when we see ALL the things we can do for the Kingdom, but the enemy comes along to make us feel inadequate. That’s when God reassures us that YES, we CAN DO ALL things through Christ who strengthens us!

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